January 5 - February 28, 2005

These entries are from multiple sources. See the footnotes for details.

January 5, 2005
» a year in review


I don't usually do "memes" but I thought this one was a good way to summarize 2004.

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Purchased a DVD

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for 2005?
I don't remember making any resolutions, and I didn't make any this year, but I do have at least one goal: find a good job

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No - thankfully!

5. What countries did you visit?

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
A good job

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May 16 - I graduated from college

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Passing the Fundamentals of Engineering exam :throws confetti:

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting one of the jobs that I applied for: I was ill-prepared for the interview

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Illness, yes: horrible throat infection that lasted for weeks.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
house plans *g*

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my e-pal Michele, for sending me *both* Spiderman movies :hugs Michele:

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The four members in my group for the senior design project

14. Where did most of your money go?
probably for gasoline

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The announcement that MacGyver will be released on DVD

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
I don't think that any of them will

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? Happier
Older or wiser? Um, both?
Thinner or fatter? About the same, I guess
Richer or poorer? Poorer. I went to working part-time, since my company lost a contract

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Worked more effectively on the senior design project

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Fretting and being lazy

20. How did you spend Christmas?
Went to a get-together at my cousin's house, then returned home, cooked, opened gifts, then watched videos with my sister

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
No - but I met some interesting prospects ;-)

22. How many one-night stands?

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Angel *cries*

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

25. What was the best book you read?
'The Puppet Crown' by Harold MacGrath (it's an old book that my grandfather had, but it's really good!)

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Duran Duran Greatest hits CD

27. What did you want and get?
Spiderman on video (Thanks, Michele!)

28. What did you want and not get?
A new job *grumbles*

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Spiderman 2

30. What did you do on your birthday?
Not much

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Succeeding at getting my house built. (Unfortunately, the job situation put that on hold.)

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Unchanged from previous years

33. What kept you sane?
My faith - and writing about things in my journals

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Tobey Maguire

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
I'm not very political, but the election, I guess

36. Who did you miss?
The cast of Angel

37. Who was the best new person you met?
(Impossible to pick just one)

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Maybe redemption has stories to tell

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Everybody's watching you now, Everybody waits for you now, What happens next? What happens next? I dare you to move ..." (from Dare You to Move by Switchfoot)

January 11, 2005
» no time like the present


On New Year's Eve and New Year's Day, I took some time to organize things around the house. That may sound lame, but I actually enjoyed it. I feel a real sense of accomplishment when I look at how neat the stuff looks - I keep wondering why I waited so long to do it!

Part of my inspiration to get organized was thinking how January is typically the busiest month at my part-time job. But as it turns out, I'm not working nearly as much as I have in Januaries past. Apparently the new scheduler is trying to lighten my load since I have another job; she doesn't even offer me gigs that may run late. I told her last week when we talked that I plan to work more in January and February, but even then, for the next two weeks I only have six or seven things scheduled. Usually at the first of the year I work almost every day. I'm not really complaining though: I'm using the free time to continue on my organizing trend.

I'm also using the time to keep up with work on my Alias website. Since the season four premiere last week, the site is getting hundreds of hits every day. I'm sure that's just a temporary spike, but it's kind of nice. Knowing the site is visited compels me to update it. *g*

At my regular job, I was surprised to learn that the boss will be in town tomorrow to collect some of the furniture to take to the DC office. That actually works out pretty well, since last week in an attempt to start the year out right at work as well as at home, I worked on organizing the files and the office supplies. So, he should be able to take most of the cabinets because I condensed "my" stuff into two of them. However, he called today asking if I was still using his desk. Um, what else would I be using? I thought that was a really ridiculous question; I don't need much, but I *do* need some small place to work. Maybe he was trying to ask if there was another desk I could use, but if so, he should come right out and ask that. If he wants to take the nice furniture and buy something cheap for me, that's fine. As I said, I just need some small place.

My job hunt is going pretty slowly - simply because I'm finding zero prospects - but I feel like I've got renewed energy to keep searching. I even wrote a basic cover letter, something that I've been putting off for way too long. Now if I could just find a company to send it to . . .

Yesterday, since time for the release of the MacGyver DVD is swiftly approaching, I went to buy a DVD player. I dreaded the whole process: trying to pick a player, looking at stores, trying to hook the thing up, etc. I've been researching players and prices on the Internet for a couple of weeks; yesterday I read a few reviews at amazon.com that got me thinking in a different direction. I went to three stores with no luck, but I found it at the fourth. It was one of the less expensive ones because, as I tell people, I just want it to play DVDs. Maybe later I'll start to want some bells and whistles, but for now, a simple one will do. (And with my light income, a cheaper one is a necessity!)

January 14, 2005 @ 12:18 PM
» the hardest part? waiting


Thanks to work, I have yet to watch Wednesday's episode of Alias. (I REALLY hope I got it on tape!) So now I'm diligently avoiding all of the entertainment news sites that I usually visit, because lately those sites are really bad about spoiling surprises. Even the TV Guide descriptions are very spoiler-y; they'll start with something like, "The gang copes with Bob's sudden demise . . ." and it's like, "WHAT?! Bob's dead?!" Yeah, not good.

Thanks to work also, I'm working today. (Huh?) Usually I'm off on Friday, but the boss has movers taking some extra furniture to the DC office, so here I am. The movers arrived about nine, but then they decided to get the stuff from the boss's house first, so I'm stuck here waiting for their return. After they get all this junk out, I need to assemble the new desk I purchased. I was hoping to have that done today, so I can start out next week ready to work, but if it gets too late, I'll just go and leave that for later. I have to work at my second job tonight, and I fully intend to go home first and rest for several hours first.

I was just thinking of some things I'd like to accomplish: I wonder if I could do any of them now . . . just my luck, I'll start one and the movers will show up. Hmm, maybe I should, just so they'll get here. *wink*

January 19, 2005
» the one with the new desk


Last week was the busiest that I've had in a long time. I had part-time "gigs" on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday, and my day time job was actually busy too. The boss even asked me to work on Friday because movers were coming to take the extra furniture to the DC office. I was hoping that the movers would get the stuff and leave so that I could assemble my (cheap) new desk and be home in time to rest a bit before my gig. However, the movers arrived at nine, looked at what they would be moving and decided to get the things from the boss's house first.

About two, the movers had just rolled out the last piece of furniture; the boss arrived at that point, looked around and asked, "Oh, you don't have your new desk ready?" Since our office is teeny tiny and the movers had been moving stuff out, was I supposed to get in their way and assemble my desk? I think not. As I started to pull the pieces from the box, the boss asked three separate times if he needed to call someone to help me. (As ever, his confidence in my abilities is underwhelming.) I insisted that I could do it, and then the other office guy insisted on helping me. The assembly moved pretty well but we had some setbacks and I could tell that my helper was starting to get stressed. About four I said that I was calling it a day, and he agreed that was a good idea.

On the way home I realized that I had forgotten my pocket calendar, but I thought that I'd written my part-time schedule on my calendar at home so I drove on. As it turns out, I didn't. The boss had told me I could be off on Monday, but I decided that I needed to know what I was working, so I drove all the way back to the office about eight pm. Good thing I did because I had another gig at seven the next morning. Groan.

Anyway, I'm writing this at my new work desk. (On my lunch break, of course.) I'm going to have to take some pictures; with all of that extra junk gone, this little room seems much larger.

In other news, planning for the trip to LA has resumed. This morning I learned that one of the objects of our fandom has agreed to meet with us; when I read that I literally squealed out loud. I don't consider myself much impressed by celebrities . . . but getting the chance to meet one that I like? Wow. I know that he could still flake out, but I'm planning to start shopping for outfits for the trip soon. *g*

January 19, 2005 @ 03:02 PM
» read between the lines


I need to be working on my petty project at work, but it's one of those where it's not clear what I should be doing, so I'm having trouble proceeding . . . plus I'm lazy. And at the same time I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with stuff I need to do. Nah, not with work - don't be silly! lol - but with my websites. I just noticed that it was a month ago today that I updated one, and if my stats are correct, the site is getting a few more visitors than it has been. That's great because feeling like it was neglected doesn't exactly inspire updates, but now I'm feeling pressured to update, but no time to do it . . . sigh.

I don't know if this is brought on by the string of super-busy days that I had last week, or what. I even felt drained yesterday evening and skipped exercising, something that I rarely do.

In other news, one of my on-line dating prospects (I've no idea how to correctly refer to him, so that'll have to do) found my personal site. No, not this one obviously, but the more public one. He didn't seem mad, but I couldn't help feeling like I'd somehow been caught in a lie. I explained that I used to give the site's link out to people that I "met" online, but certain reactions made me think that I was sharing too much. I hope he's not mad, and I hope that he doesn't read my casually-posted comments and then read too much into them.

Apart from that concern, I'm glad that he found the site. I don't know what it is about him, but he seems different from the others that I met. For one thing, I wrote to him first. Then I decided to share the email address that I usually use, instead of the one that I usually give to on-line people. (That's actually what led him to my site: he clicked on my profile and there was the link. Hmm, maybe subconsciously I wanted him to find it?) He confessed that he has a fear of commitment, and I think that makes me like him more because I do too. If he gushed on and seemed very eager to get together, I know that I'd feel compelled to run away. Beyond that, he seems to need a friend. I learned long ago that I can't be responsible for other peoples' happiness, but I think that us having a friendship (even if nothing more) would be good for him . . . and maybe for me too. I kind of like the idea that he can read my extensive writings at the site, and maybe they can keep him company when he feels lonely.

January 21, 2005
» The Petulant Kid


My boss asked if I could work tomorrow, and I said that I kinda had plans. I *do* have plans to work on my website, but I probably could have spared a little time . . . but I absolutely hate the thought of coming in to work, after a week that already differed annoying from my usual nice schedule. I've been lazy this week, and for several days I truly struggled to stay awake during my mind-numbingly tedious project. In the boss's case, I petulantly thought how he cut me back to part-time, gives me no benefits, yet expects me to be free whenever he calls? I also recalled how the last time he asked for my help on a proposal, I spent hours working on his request, only to be told that they had done it themselves. Well thanks for the reminder that I am completely worthless. I feel no kind of loyalty to him, especially when my presence is not needed.

Yet after I said that I couldn't work, I felt kind of bad about it. Everything I wrote above is true (that is, that they could definitely make it without me, and I feel zero compulsion to help) but I thought how it was times like this that the boss keeps me around for. He probably wouldn't have even needed me; he just likes to know what his options are. Still, I'm feeling more than a little childish.

My attitude probably stems from the resurgence of discontent that I have with my current (nowhere) job. I feel as if I've written this a thousand times, but I am SO ready to get a new job. I've been looking for job opportunities quite steadily, but I currently have zero prospects. I know that I need to wait for the right job, but it's so tough, wondering when that will happen. I get even more impatient when I think how the lack of a steady job is delaying one of my long time dreams: buying my own house.

On the bright side, I was recently able to reorganize things in my office, and I really like it. My phone is no longer out of arms reach. I found a notebook for phone messages, which eliminates my previous disorganized method of taking notes on loose scraps of paper. My monitor is conveniently set back on the desk, and the CPU is tucked away in a spot designated for it. Plus, I have plenty of work space on the desktop.

Yet, I still don't want to work any more than I have to . . .

January 26, 2005
» work with me, people


Yesterday I was *thrilled* to find an ad for a job that I could actually apply for. I don't have experience with the software they mentioned, but I decided to apply anyway, pointing out that I'm highly computer proficient and learn new things very quickly. Yeah, I'm sure they hear that in every response they receive, but I've got to try something. I typed up a cover letter, printed out a resume and mailed them out yesterday afternoon.

I also decided to (belatedly) follow up on a letter I received several months ago: the man said he had received my resume and would be calling to set up interviews in a couple of weeks. Well, I never heard back from him, but since his letter gives me a specific contact to write to, I thought I'd "reaffirm" my interest in working for the company.

It's been so long since I've had any job prospects; these new chances have really given me a surge of hope. Since I was going with long shots, I decided to email resumes to two potential companies and ask about opportunities. I'm seriously thinking about volunteering with a small local company just to get some exposure. In case I haven't mentioned it, I am very anxious to find a new job. I want to get the right one, of course, but lack of stable employment is preventing me from fulfilling another dream. Plus, I'm looking forward to the day when I can tell my current employer that I'm leaving.

At the same time, looking for a job is so frustrating. I know that's a universal truth, but it's especially true for me as I try to enter the field of engineering. Everyone seems to be looking for experience, so there's always a lot of competition for the rare entry-level position. I get overwhelmed just reading the job descriptions, thinking how employers are going to expect me to know something. I dread the interviews because I'm petrified that they'll stump me with a simple question. I know that I can do the job, but I'm very bad at making them see that. Sigh.

January 28, 2005
» "Good . . . " grief


How is it that I always seem to know when my boss or Kay is calling? No, I don't pick up the phone and immediately say their names, like Kreskin or someone. It's a bit more embarrassing than that: I find some way to flub answering the phone. Today for example, Kay called and I paused an unreasonably long amount of time before saying hello. I have before been practically unable to speak, when my tongue gets twisted. My most often mistake is to say "good morning" when it's afternoon, or vice versa.

As I said, this ONLY happens when I answer the phone for those two people, because they are the only ones that will sarcastically say something about that. (Note: it doesn't happen every time - but more than I'd like.) For example, one day Kay entered the office, and I said, "good morning." It was two minutes after noon, and he said in a politely sarcastic voice, "Oh, is it morning?" My boss has said the same thing when I've done that to him. I want to snap back that apparently they've never, ever had a slip of the tongue to be making such a big deal of such an unimportant thing. :rollseyes: To me, them commenting on it is beyond rude.

Speaking of rude, my other boss called earlier. (I got the time of day correct in my greeting. :sits up proudly:) She asked a question, then proceed to question my answer. Now that I think of it, my boss did the same thing earlier too. Why do they even ask me anything!

Now I'm afraid that the boss will ask me to work tomorrow. I'll be in town, so I might can spare a few hours, but I'll need to leave at six. If he asks me about Sunday I'll inform him that I'm working at my other job. I hope that makes him feel a bit guilty about cutting my hours. :big grin: Actually, I've had that job for a while, and I could easily get by without it; it just gives me a little extra ching, you know? But as I've blogged before, being part-time with no benefits doesn't exactly inspire me to be available at their beck-and-call.

January 31, 2005 @ 10:06 AM
» take those charts and shove 'em!


I'm in a very, very, very, very VERY BAD MOOD! I came in to work earlier than usual to "help" with the crap they're working on, and first thing I find an email from the boss asking me, no, telling me to basically redo work that I had already finished and got a "good job" from the person that checked it. I only did it the way I did because that's the way the information was provided to me. GAH!

More maddening than that, the boss adds about four more tasks for me to do, include making some charts - "in Word," he specified. So there I am, fulfilling the ONLY stipulation for the charts: creating them using Microsoft Word. I've finished two of the three charts when he comes in, asking for some guy's number. The boss is bragging on the way this guy did the charts for us before. So he's calling this guy, but when I say that I no longer need to work on them, the boss says that I can go ahead and save my charts, if I've already done them. THANKS FOR THE PERMISSION, JERKWAD! WHY THE &^%$# DO I NEED TO KEEP MY CHARTS IF THE OTHER GUY IS GOING TO DO THEM IN SOME PERFECT WAY?!?!

This is EXACTLY what I've said before about this whole job: they do not need me. Suddenly I don't feel bad for telling them I couldn't work extra two weeks ago. I knew it then, and here's more proof: whatever they need me to do, they can do it themselves. And since the boss thinks that I'm COMPLETELY UNABLE of doing things, I'd MUCH RATHER he do it his &^%$ ing self.

So while I'm inwardly seething about having wasted an hour working on worthless charts, the boss wants to show me the charts that Lee made. Um WHY DO I NEED TO SEE THE CHARTS THAT HE MADE WHEN HE IS COMING TO REDO THEM? Should I try to do them that way, so that Lee can just come and do them, and my charts not be used? GAH!!!!!!!

All this comes as I find myself particularly frustrated this morning about the lack of job prospects that I have. :cries: Combine that with this job mess, and again I'm fantasizing about turning in my notice. My two second notice. My "I'm out of here and I HOPE you find a replacement who will put up with your condescending attitude for HALF as long as I have!" notice.

February 1, 2005
» fun and profit


I'm thisclose to applying for a job announcement that I found today. It isn't a civil engineering position - it's aerospace, fyi - but it's entry level. The job duties are described mainly as checking calculations: I know that I could do that, but I'm not sure that I *want* to do it. If I get that job, I'm pretty much throwing in the towel on my structural engineering plans. Still, I'm planning to apply: that's no guarantee that I'll get it, right?

As I mentioned last week, I sent off a couple of resumes and I was feeling very optimistic at just having some prospects. Soon after that, though, reality set in and I suddenly saw the chances of getting either of those jobs as very slim. (I should probably wait to see if I get a response before assuming the worst . . . I guess I'm trying to brace myself for another disappointment.)

One - of a long list - of reasons that I want another job (soon!) is that my boss is in town, and yesterday I was reminded of how he thinks I know absolutely nothing. I'll spare you most of the details, but basically he gave me an assignment; after I worked on it for about an hour, without even looking to see what I'd done, the boss suddenly declares that he's going to call in someone else to do that. That insulted me SO much, because it's yet another example of his complete lack of faith in me. I've worked with him for over five years, and apparently he's never going to see me as a capable employee. I truly have no idea why that is: as I've said before, I don't routinely flub assignments or stand around looking confused whenever he asks me to do something. I'm not perfect, but I've got an engineering degree, for crying out loud - most people would take that to mean that I have at least a little sense/smarts.

Moving on, because I'm determined not to let that ruin my mood again, even though it still bothers me. A lot.

I have a long and somewhat ambitious list of things that I'd like to accomplish for my websites, but everything else seems to be competing for my time. I'm working a lot this week . . . well, I'm at work, and the boss saves the most menial tasks for me. :grumbles: In better news, my season one MacGyver DVD set arrived last week, and I'm enjoying the heck out of watching those. Plus, I'm having some weird body aches/issues that I attribute to too much sitting still, so I'm trying to limit my computer time.

Speaking of which, I'd better get back to "work."

February 15, 2005
» roses are red, violets are ... blah


Nothing against violets, I'm just in a really "blah" mood today. It's SO slow at work. The phone hasn't rang once; that's not necessarily a bad thing but it does make the place quiet.

I expected a blah mood yesterday, but the day was pretty average - nothing out of the ordinary. The one good thing about being single on Valentine's Day is that you know what to expect: nothing. It occurred to me yesterday that honestly my worst V-Days were when I had a boyfriend, and to say the least our plans did not go as expected.

Also contributing to the blah-ness is the fact that I applied for the job I mentioned in the previous entry and I've yet to hear anything. I try to remind myself that from the employer's standpoint, I know it takes a while for applications to be forwarded to the correct department, reviewed, etc. Sigh. I'm just getting so frustrated with my current job situation. I can't remember ever feeling this anxious to leave a job, and that feeling is only made worse when prospects are few and far between, and even then, they want people with experience, and I can't even get an interview. Sigh again.

Thanks to the person who sent me the lead on the job, btw. I do appreciate it. To help reduce the frustration (and to feel like I'm doing something toward my job hunt), I've been trying to collect info on companies that hire civil engineers. I'm hoping that the job I applied for last week pans out, though, and I won't need to look anymore. :crosses fingers:

Edited to add...

I just got a call from my boss who is back in DC. He asked how my job search is going; as usual, he brought that up to say that he may not be able to keep me on for very long. (Promises, promises: if I had a dollar for every time he told me that, I wouldn't need a new job 'cuz I'd be rich!) He said he doesn't know when exactly, but if he has to let me go, he'll let me know a week or two in advance. I assured him that I understand: he needs to hire someone to help out in that office. I wanted to add, "Believe me: I am READY to go!"

The funny thing is, news like this *thrills* me. My biggest concern? I've been working on a new layout for one of my sites, and I really like to use the graphic editing software that we have at work. When I leave, maybe I'll offer the boss a dollar for this computer . . .

February 28, 2005
» my hero


Man, this has been a long - and largely unproductive - day. The phone has hardly rang at work. I've received no emails with petty projects for me to work on.

So, I've been surfing the 'Net. Sigh. I'm planning to do quite a bit of website work this evening, so I was hoping for minimum computer time at work today, but I should know better than that.

Hmm . . . what can I ramble about?

Well, at one of my sites, I recently added a fanfiction section. I found several good stories on a site that is no longer active, and I wrote to the author asking if I could post them. She didn't write back. Today I searched for her on Google and found another address for her at fanfiction-dot-net, so I just wrote to her there. She NEEDS to let me post those stories. They're long, and well-written IMHO. I'm tempted to post them without her permission, but that would be wrong. I'd hate for her to find out and write, demanding that I remove them. (How embarrassing would that be!)

At another site, I'm working on a new layout because the graphics-heavy one that it has now is making my statistics work overtime. I declared last week that I'd have that layout posted by the end of this month, but I realized quickly that wasn't a realistic goal because there was so much to do. Hopefully though, it will be posted by the end of March - maybe even by the middle!

Oh! I purchased the MacGyver Season One DVD back when it was released in January, and I am LOVING it! I haven't had time to watch all the episodes yet, but I've enjoyed the ones I've seen so far. I first watched them so long ago that I don't remember much about them. I'm a different person now, and I notice more stuff than I did, so it feels like Mac is a different person too. (He was quite sarcastic in season one. I love it!)

February 28, 2005
» new, old prospects


I've got a job interview! *dances for joy* Last August I had sent a response to a newspaper ad for this company, and the man wrote back to say that he was traveling but he'd be contacting candidates for a phone interview before "requiring a personal interview." I didn't hear back from him, so last month I sent a follow-up letter saying that perhaps the process was delayed longer than expected, but I'm still interested in talking to them. And he wrote back about an interview at their office!

Of course I'm thrilled at this opportunity but the thought of the interview itself makes me so nervous. I plan to spend the time between then and now preparing by looking at websites that have interview tips. I'll also look over my work history and be prepared to talk about my accomplishments. I'll also list a few questions to ask them; hopefully that will show that I'm interested and that I'm seriously considering what they're telling me. Plus, I need to know whether I actually want to work there. I definitely want a new job (desperately) but I don't want to just take anything.

This weekend another small thing really tickled me. I'd found an old pair of my jeans in our spare room several months ago and I've been meaning to try them on. They're from my high school days (!) but they look okay; they were a bit too big on me then so I rarely wore them. Well I tried them on, and they fit. And I can breathe! They're still a little roomy now - that's probably why I can breathe. :D

February 28, 2005 @ 12:48 PM
» don't cry to me


Well, after the previous entry, things have been pretty quiet at work. The boss recently told me again that he'll probably have to let me go soon. (:yawns: Promises, promises.) I've actually got a job interview next week, and I REALLY hope it pans out!

Today's entry is spawned by adventures at one of those on-line meetup sites, where people can make new friends, penpals, etc. I was thinking about the wide variety of guys that write to me and it occurred to me that they appeal (though that's a strong word) to different parts of my personality. For example, one is heavily into outdoorsy stuff; I consider myself a nature girl, but I wouldn't say that it's the defining point of my character. Another one admits that he has commitment issues: I definitely do, too.

Still others write and I have no idea why. One has written recently; he types in all capitals, and his messages are short, bordering on cryptic. He said something about beauty being in the eye of the beholder. That was part of his response to my question about would he be uploading a picture to his profile. I find it interesting that although he didn't seem to want to be judged on his appearance, he wrote to me, who has two pictures posted. In his first note he even commented on me being beautiful, so I felt justified in writing back on the topic of pictures.

Please note that I do not consider myself beautiful: I only post pictures of myself where I don't look hideous. Hmm ... maybe I should post some that are more representative of how I actually look?

For another guy, I shared the link to my personal website (not this one obviously) and he wrote back, quoting several lines of what I'd written and writing questions or comments about them. I wrote that I've never used an ATM and his comment was "Why?" Maybe I'm reading it wrong but that seems a little belligerent. That's like one of my real-life friends asking me about that after he found my site, and that guy seemed ready to lecture me for being stuck in the dark ages or something. (If anyone's curious, I budget my money and I set aside a certain amount for spending, so there's never a need for me to make trips to an ATM.)

This guy also wrote back about me being a vegetarian, and he wrote two long paragraphs about how all of the ones he knows are quite militant about it. That irks me a bit: please don't put me in a box, judging me by people that you know. I guarantee I'm not like anyone you've met, just as you're not like anyone I've met. That's like me saying, "Oh, his name is Chris. I know a Chris, so this guy must be just like that!"

This guy has a blog: maybe I'll sift through there and find things to take issue with. Then again, I'll probably not waste my time. I should've known something was up when this guy wrote a rather lengthy account of why in a marriage "women get what they want 95% of the time." How am I supposed to respond to such a broad generalization like that?


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